Giving Up.........
Wow... i don't know why suddenly i'm thingking of giving up everything i do. Sounds like i'm weak huh? I'm always positive thinking, i'm always look foward, and i always belive in my self. But... i don't know why but all of that spirit gone slowly.
Now i'm thinking what should actually i do in my life? I'm always pleased people, make people happy, help people when they need help... i do everyting for other people. I do love to make people happy and help them. But this word keep playing in my mind,
"Azhar... you too soft.. too kind to other people.. you keep helping people although you your self are not happy... people are and always step on your head and use you for their on good.."
Those word was from my lecturer during my last day at Stamford College. Everything mix up in my mind. Well like what my lecturer said... i do have lots of friend but i don't really have real friend. Actually i'm so confius until i don't know what is the truth and what is not. What is lie and what is not. I know people don't really care about me because i'm just a person that good in listening to the problem but not to enjoy with. What my lecturer said are all true.
I'm so confius until i don't really know what to do. I put a side the thing that i love to do. I'm not being my self. I keep thinking what i do for others are all useless. I'm not good person. I don't know what to do. I wrote this on my blog because i have nobody to tell all of this. Keep listening to others but end up i don't know to whom should i talk to. I don't want to troubling other people with my problem but.... i stuck within my self.... and this word just come across my mind.... GIVE UP!!
Now i'm thinking what should actually i do in my life? I'm always pleased people, make people happy, help people when they need help... i do everyting for other people. I do love to make people happy and help them. But this word keep playing in my mind,
"Azhar... you too soft.. too kind to other people.. you keep helping people although you your self are not happy... people are and always step on your head and use you for their on good.."
Those word was from my lecturer during my last day at Stamford College. Everything mix up in my mind. Well like what my lecturer said... i do have lots of friend but i don't really have real friend. Actually i'm so confius until i don't know what is the truth and what is not. What is lie and what is not. I know people don't really care about me because i'm just a person that good in listening to the problem but not to enjoy with. What my lecturer said are all true.
I'm so confius until i don't really know what to do. I put a side the thing that i love to do. I'm not being my self. I keep thinking what i do for others are all useless. I'm not good person. I don't know what to do. I wrote this on my blog because i have nobody to tell all of this. Keep listening to others but end up i don't know to whom should i talk to. I don't want to troubling other people with my problem but.... i stuck within my self.... and this word just come across my mind.... GIVE UP!!
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